Rabbit (That's Me!)

Lent falls on the most depressing, ugly seaason of the year. Mid to late winter is yucky. Wet, grey, brown, cold, icey, YUCK. Plus I have to come up with meat-free meals for Fridays, and that's hard! Here comes the cinnamon toast every week.

It didn't take long for me to blow my Lenten resolution - I vowed to give up anger for 6 weeks. It lasted about an hour, and then something happened to totally infuriate me (and rightly so). I really fought hard not to give in to the anger, to just let it go, but it was impossible. So I have to start all over again...

I need a little sunshine and warmth. I bet this is a post I have made every year around this time. Places like Florida and the southwest really look attractive to me right now. What luck to be a native Ohioan that probably will never mnove out of state. Oh well...at least the hay prices are good here!

You know what's got me worried? The fact that things have been going good...too good! Is that silly or what? I mean, things have been working out, problems have been resolving, and my life has smoothed out. So I sit here and instead of enjoying my wonderful, comfortable, fun life, I am waiting for the shoe to drop, for the disaster that is sure pending to strike at any moment.

OK, enough of that. I need to live for today and enjoy what I have, and what is going right for me. Hey, this doesn't always happen, so I need to sit back and relish the experience!

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You know, when it all comes down to the wire, the only person you can really count on is yourself. It stinks. I have come to realize that the phrase 'no man is an island' is completely wrong. Every man is an island. We might take a boat across the water and visit our neighboring islands, but in reality we are all out here on our own. It doesn't pay to count on anyone other than yourself for the most part. I think this is the way of the world today. I am sure things weren't always this way. But I guess that's our modern world....selfish and unwilling to sacrifice without some sort of personal reward.

I hate being an island. There are some things I do need help with. There are some things I believe I could help someone else with. Sadly...I am an island. I feel stupid most of the time - very much like a doormat. When is someone going to step forward and help me for a change?

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...all ink pens would be smooth, free-flowing, and work. Oh ho I hate sticky, jumpy pens that don't write smoothly. It really irks me. I am a big fan of the marker pen, markers are so smooth!

Likewise I am extra particular about my paint. I hate thin, watery paint that takes 3-4 coats to cover. It makes it very hard to mix the right shades and blend on the portrait.

I paint in order to earn enough money to show. My show season depends on my artwork sales. My artwork depends on GOOD PAINT! I ca only buy GOOD paint if I earn money. Argh, viscious circle!

I have been busy, these snow days. This is my second job. Now that my STUPID tooth is paid for, I can start savng money for the show season. Time to make more memories, and live my life...can't wait!

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Imagine if you had a large amount of extra pocket change. Of course, imagine all of your bills were paid, you had plenty in your savings, and more money coming in. Let's just say you had miscellaneous cash to sped. What woudl you buy? Here's my list:

• Underwater digital camera - that woudl eb SO useful on our cruise this summer. I don't want to take my very expensive digi camera onany of the boats and take the chance of getting it wet
• Insulated riding boots - Ariat makes a great pair, but they run $80-$100 and that just is not in the budget this year!
• A snowblower - we have 12 inches of snow and more coming. 'Nuff said!
• A new bridle for Corky - she deserves a new one, but I just can't swing it right now.
• A new Flugelhorn - Yeah, I love Crinkle the Crumplehorn but man, he plays like a bad tank
• A leather toold cell phone case - Corky ate my good leather cell phone cover that came with the phone. Now I have a cheapy $4 Wal-Mart case. I saw some beautiful tooled leather ones at Rods...but that is a totally unnecissary purchase!
• Microsoft Word - mine went kaput and does not work, so I cannot open any documents nor write any. A new Word program is an obscene amount of money. Anyone have a pirated copy they care to share?
• A case of printer ink. - I have a zillion photos I want to print out, but the ink would bankrupt me!

Oh this list in endless. I could have used my nice-sized tax refund to splurge. Instead it paid for my stupid tooth repair, and will help pay for the family cruise this summer. Gee, wonder which one I will enjoy more???

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Inconsiderate people drive me crazy. Trust me, you don't want to see me crazy! I just can't stand it when people treat things (or people) with disrespect just because they don't belong to them. Inconsideration comes in may forms and many places. It can be something as simple as not putting your shopping cart back in the corral at Wal-Mart, or kicking someone else's possessions out of your way just because they aren't yours. Why are people deliberately inconsiderate? Many people (myself included) are often unconsciously inconsiderate. I do things without thinking that annoy others. But I have never deliberately done something to someone else's stuff that could cause potential harm or breakage just because I was annoyed. I think the world needs to be more considerate of things that don't belong to them. Most of the world needs practice in putting the shoe on the other foot. Don't open your car door into mine, don't leave your shopping cart behind my truck, don't throw trash in my yard, don't treat my possessions like garbage. Pretty simple, don'tcha think?

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The weather forecast is saying 8-12 inches of snow starting this evening and running through Wednesday morning. That's alotta snow! Of course the big talk around school is snow day tomorrow!!! As if we didn't just have an entire week last week of 2 hour delays every day. A snow day would be a welcome break except for the fact that it is arriving on a TUESDAY and I have to travel to Dayton...no ifs, ands, or buts I have to go this week. Makes the 4-5 inches we got 2 weeks ago on a Tuesday seem like nothing, should have gone ahead and 4-wheel driven it to rehearsal. *big sigh* it's going to be an ugly night for me.

I could use the day off to spend painting. I am crossing my fingers in hoping that I make some good money at the Findlay tack swap meet next Sunday. I have some tack and clothing to sell, and lotsn and lots of artwork to hawk. My show season depends a lot on the success of this sale.

Man oh man I hate being in a windowless room all day. I am dying to peek outside and see if it has started snowing yet!

I really hate snow. I hate driving in it, hate walking in it, the only thing I like is the delays in my work day that it sometimes causes.

Now the big question is: do I assume we will have a delay/cancellation tomorrow and risk staying up late and doing stuff, or should I be prudent and go to bed at my normal time in case I still have to get up at 5:45am? Oh, you KNOW I will end up staying late! I am an optimist (well, sometimes I am, but that's a whole 'nother blog topic!).

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Why is it so easy to start new bad habits than it is to start good habits? I don't get it. God really made the workings of our minds a bit backwards. I need to have a talk with him about this. For instance, it is totally easy for me to get into the bad habit of not putting my dishes away, or not taking my dirty clothes downstairs, or throwing empty Diet Pepsi bottles in the bed of my truck. Why then is is so difficult to get into the habit of washing my dishes immediately, of taking my clothes downstairs, of putting my DP bottles in the trash? Weird.

I sat down here intending on listing my bad habits, but decided it would be better to keep these things to myself for now. I think the overall number one bad habit that seems to affect my daily life is just plain forgetfulness, or absentmindedness. I do things (or don't do things) not necessarily out of habit or in a consciously bad way, but generally because my mind gets scattered and I forget, or don't even think about it. I wake up in the morning and my mind is whirling and spinning thinking about all the million things I need to prepare for and what i need to do, and I don't think about what my hands are doing at that moment. Or I get started doing something, get distracted (which happens very easily for me!) and I go off and attend to the distraction, leaving things hanging where I was working originally. It's not a conscious decision to leave things out or not do things correctly, but that is the way I am wired. I think a lot of epople who aren't wired that way have a hard time understanding what it's like. I get just as frustrated with myself as everyone else! Dang it, I FULLY INTEND on doing things right, but it seems no matter how good my intentions are and how hard I try, I still end up screwing up about 60% of the time. Those odds aren't good.

I guess that's why I tend to cause a great annoyance factor in those who spend a lot of time with me. I guess some people shouldn probably just live alone. Either that, or they should live with other imperfect people who also make lots of mistakes...because no one is as understanding as those who share the same afflictions!

Either that, or I need to become rich enough to hire my own personal secretary to take care of the little details that escape me!!!

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