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I can't take credit for this, but found this on a message forum, and boy does it ring true! With that, I'll close...
Didn't I just post some long drivel about not looking into the future, live for today? Silly me!
I am looking towards October, in righting a wrong and straightening out the one thing that clouds my memory. It's great to set a major goal every now and then, and then aim your time in successfully completing your goal.
What am I doing to work towards my goal? I am pushing myself physically - working out 3-4 times a week in hopes of building strength. With strength comes confidence, and that's my number one need right now. I am budgeting my money as best I can, giving up the small daily luxuries (and some of the big ones) in order to achieve my goal. I am working on my own personal education, as well as Taylor's. Together we can do it (insert weird foreign accent here).
This is what we have to live down! I just wish I had my hat back!
I feel very good about things. I really think things are turning around... and are going back to the way they used to be. It is always an effort, of course, and there will be slipups, but the general want, need, and feeling is still there and shared. That's the most important element of all.
Sometimes you can't fix things until they are broken...sometimes just letting things stay bent forever is a bad plan.
What a great phrase! It seems like I spent way too many hours of my life worrying for the future, wondering about the future, planning for the future, agonizing over the future. I wonder how many precious hours of my life I have lost in worrying about things that never happened?
Another great phrase to live by is 'Carpe Diem' - Seize the day. Live your life today, not in planning for tomorrow. That's not to say we should never plan for the future! But it shouldn't be one's main focus in life.
I don't want to spend my life living to die. Every moment is valuable, even the bad ones. I want to enjoy every breath that goes into my lungs. I want to enjoy every second spent with the people I care about. I want to waste less time being angry atb people, being hurt or insulted. I want to be the proverbial duck that lets the water roll off it's back.
I have some lofty goals!
My goal for lent will be to be more forviging - forgive unto others and all that. I feel hurt lately and I have been holding onto it because a lot of my feelings have changed drastically. I need to learn to let go, or I will be come as bitter as the company i keep! So I sit down today and am telling myself that I FORGIVE! I am letting the hurt go and I am moving on...albeit carefully...but I am moving on.
Forgiveness doesn't equate to stupidity. I may forgive and move on, but I learn from every wrong done to me, and hopefully I can and will avoid the situations that gave someone an opportunity to hurt me, and stay safe.
I guess I came to this revelation when I realized all the wrong things I have done that I am constantly asking for forgiveness. I guess if I expect and want to be forgiven, I have to do the same, unconditionally. It's tough, but hopefully it will make me into a better, happier, more optimistic person. That's a good goal to have for self-improvement in the next 40 days. That and to LOSE WEIGHT, darn it!
